♥Sunday, February 24, 2008

things gone this way .
i felt red light in our relationship blinking .
ya , everything is my fault ,
why cant you just understand me ?
i'm now facing probs in my family .
yet , i still have to masked up with happiness .
to face the world & you .
how would you felt if i were you ?
tired & sick , m i right ?
everytime , i need to have alot of patience to bear with everything ,
you kno my patience is LIMITED .
not only me , same goes to everyone .
somethings i cant said out .
why you still want me said out ?
wat's the benefits ?
nothing right ?
when i dont tell you , this is the fucking attitude & face you gave ,
sometime , i think that you are comparing me with Clara IN UR HEART !
maybe somethings , i cant do it good but Clara can do it .
i dont kno .
i dont kno what you're thinking .
lm thinks the same way with me .
if i ever know ever truth , i guess i will nvr forgive you , nomatter how i love you .
in this relationship .
m i the one who kept hurting you ?
but why the words you said to me felt sour & cry .
m i kept making you cry ?
but why m i always the first one to dropped so many tears for you .
m i making you worry ?
why when i'm worried for you , you said i think too much .
m i not caring enough ?
then why everyword i told you , you will like nvr listen .
m i not loving enough .
becos you dont change .
m i not trusting you ?
bcos you nvr been honest with me , you dint tell me the truth .
m i struggling in this relationship ?
nvr , no matter what , i swallow everything , i kept everything to myself jus to maintain our relationship .
maybe , i just aint a good girlfriend at all .
i had been single for more than half year ,
but in the end i choose to trust you & be with you .
is this the things i wanna get ?
what's happening now ?
who is changing ?
you always called me cheer up , stay strong .
yayayaya , said is easy , do is like fuck diffcult .
now i cant even handle my family probs , & this relationship porbs came in .
wth ?!
i hope i can nvr see a penknife infront of me .
i would jus slash it without a second thought .
i'm so tired );
sometime you have to let go , what you can't live without